My biological father contacted me trough Facebook a few weeks ago. I don't know or even understand how he found me. My name changed when I was adopted. He hasn't been in my life since I was 3. I might have seen him a few times over the years but it wasn't even worth remembering. The very last time that I saw him I was 14. It was right before his and my moms parental rights were terminated.
My brother and I were sitting in the DHS office (Department of Human Services). He had to be there to see our case worker about something, Im not really sure about what. At the time I was very angry that he was there. He knew that my mom was about to lose her rights. He was trying to get custody of us. My brother and I were asked if we'd like to live with him. We both said no. I would have rather stayed in foster care then live with him. I made that decision at 14. Honestly It's not fair for a kid that age to decided their future like that. But I'm so glad that I had the chance to. I would never wish to go back and change anything. I'm very happy with the decision I made. I made the right one.
The memories I have of my father are not nice ones. I don't remember any of them being happy. I was very little when we were with him. But I remember so much. I'm not stupid or naive about any of it. You can't tell me that the things that happened didn't happen. I remember it clearly.
The conversation on Facebook made me so angry. He didn't apologize for anything or for not being there. He only pointed put that he had done nothing wrong. And that I would need to talk to my mom if I wanted to find out the real truth. He was just so mean about everything. He wanted me to call him. In a very nice way I told him that I wasn't very comfortable with that right now. He wouldn't except that. He asked "What would Jesus do in a situation like this?" and then he said "You should be more like Jesus and turn the other cheek". I can't find words to explain how mad I was after that statement. Like really? He doesn't know me. He doesn't know how like or unlike Jesus I am.
I have such a good judge in charter. Even if I didn't know about the things that happened, I can tell rather or not I want you in my life just by your charter. He wants me to allow him to be apart of my life. Honestly, I don't want him in my life. I kind of feel bad about that. But he hasn't been in my life or showed any interest in wanting to be in my life. With all that has happened and all of the feelings I've had over the years, I've been working so hard on forgiving him. I don't want a constant reminder about that stuff. I don't want new thing to have to forgive. I had some very serious time with God after this. I know that I have to deal with this. The hurt I have from everything. I want to feel free from all of it. I don't feel like I'm quit there yet. Not to have a relationship with him.
My brother and I were sitting in the DHS office (Department of Human Services). He had to be there to see our case worker about something, Im not really sure about what. At the time I was very angry that he was there. He knew that my mom was about to lose her rights. He was trying to get custody of us. My brother and I were asked if we'd like to live with him. We both said no. I would have rather stayed in foster care then live with him. I made that decision at 14. Honestly It's not fair for a kid that age to decided their future like that. But I'm so glad that I had the chance to. I would never wish to go back and change anything. I'm very happy with the decision I made. I made the right one.
The memories I have of my father are not nice ones. I don't remember any of them being happy. I was very little when we were with him. But I remember so much. I'm not stupid or naive about any of it. You can't tell me that the things that happened didn't happen. I remember it clearly.
The conversation on Facebook made me so angry. He didn't apologize for anything or for not being there. He only pointed put that he had done nothing wrong. And that I would need to talk to my mom if I wanted to find out the real truth. He was just so mean about everything. He wanted me to call him. In a very nice way I told him that I wasn't very comfortable with that right now. He wouldn't except that. He asked "What would Jesus do in a situation like this?" and then he said "You should be more like Jesus and turn the other cheek". I can't find words to explain how mad I was after that statement. Like really? He doesn't know me. He doesn't know how like or unlike Jesus I am.
I have such a good judge in charter. Even if I didn't know about the things that happened, I can tell rather or not I want you in my life just by your charter. He wants me to allow him to be apart of my life. Honestly, I don't want him in my life. I kind of feel bad about that. But he hasn't been in my life or showed any interest in wanting to be in my life. With all that has happened and all of the feelings I've had over the years, I've been working so hard on forgiving him. I don't want a constant reminder about that stuff. I don't want new thing to have to forgive. I had some very serious time with God after this. I know that I have to deal with this. The hurt I have from everything. I want to feel free from all of it. I don't feel like I'm quit there yet. Not to have a relationship with him.
