So I'm a person who does a lot of thinking. I also do a ton of writing. I have tons and tons of journals that I keep those thoughts in. Looking back at those I've realized that I've changed so much over the years. The things I want are so different. The person I am is different. The things that God has done in my life and in me are incredible.
I thought I might share some of my thoughts with you.
I'm searching for who I am and who God wants me to be. And related to this thought. I'm giving you my heart and all that is with in. I'm giving up my dreams. I surrender it all to you.
I'm a planer. I like for everything to be organized and planed out. Theres things that I want for my life. Over the last year and especially the last few months I've realized that my plans and wants for my life aren't God. I've had to give all of that up. Not knowing what that plan is really hard for me. It makes me feel a little lost.
If I let go of who I am then who am I?
I was reading a book and the author talked about how in order to be the person that God wants us to be we have to give up who we are. It's kind of a really complicated thought.
In order to be the person I was meant to be I have to give up who I want to be. I have to give up my wants.
It's really hard to like someone and want to be with them but for whatever reason you cant be... and you hope that maybe there can be something more for the future.
I'm searching for who I am and who God wants me to be. And related to this thought. I'm giving you my heart and all that is with in. I'm giving up my dreams. I surrender it all to you.
I'm a planer. I like for everything to be organized and planed out. Theres things that I want for my life. Over the last year and especially the last few months I've realized that my plans and wants for my life aren't God. I've had to give all of that up. Not knowing what that plan is really hard for me. It makes me feel a little lost.
If I let go of who I am then who am I?
I was reading a book and the author talked about how in order to be the person that God wants us to be we have to give up who we are. It's kind of a really complicated thought.
In order to be the person I was meant to be I have to give up who I want to be. I have to give up my wants.
It's really hard to like someone and want to be with them but for whatever reason you cant be... and you hope that maybe there can be something more for the future.
I don't want to make the mistake of trying to get what I want.
Going back to "I want Gods way for my life". I don't want to forget that. I don't want to rush things before it's time.
Your always a constant thought.
Sometimes I'd rather be somewhere else doing something different. (6-28-11)
Sometimes life is hard to deal with. At this time in my life I had a lot of hurt and disappointment going on. I really didn't want to deal with any of it. I just wanted to run way. Even though I'm over that, that thought is still so current in my life. Sometimes I get so frustrated. It seems like things are against me. Sometimes I feel like it would be easier to run away.
Sometimes I'd rather be somewhere else doing something different. (6-28-11)
Sometimes life is hard to deal with. At this time in my life I had a lot of hurt and disappointment going on. I really didn't want to deal with any of it. I just wanted to run way. Even though I'm over that, that thought is still so current in my life. Sometimes I get so frustrated. It seems like things are against me. Sometimes I feel like it would be easier to run away.
Thanks for sharing all of this! Isn't hard to give up control? And then at the same time it can be freeing.
ReplyDeleteReading this made me think of this verse:
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
I think a lot of time we read this as he will give us our desires...but I think what it really means is that he will give us actual new desires for our heart. And those desires will be his.
Glad you are in my life :D